I’ve spent the morning in bed, drinking chai and watching Moulin Rouge while working on a self portrait. Then I got inspired by my favorite scenes and made a poster. I’m going to frame it and hang in my new living room. Yellow and burgundy red is my favorite color combination right now. I’m totally obsessed with color. Normally I’m not crazy for yellow, but somehow without my knowing it creeped onto my list of favorites. Sneaky. Maybe thats why I never liked it before, can you really trust yellow?
I’ve been thinking a lot about the future and what I want to do and how I want my life to go. I’ve also been thinking about life, but thats a whole other story. Point is, sometimes when I have a dream I push it away thinking it’s not possible, that I won’t be able to accomplish it. I’ve been doing that when I think about my future career(s). When people ask me what I want to do when I graduate I say something like, “well what I want is this, but what I’ll probably be doing is this….” I’m settling before I even try. What I want is to free lance, to work from home, to work on a personal level, creating what I believe in. I don’t want to do corporate design, sit in an office and be constricted by strick deadlines and budgets. I want to someday have my own business, work for myself and design with passion. I want to travel, and have babies, cook and maybe grow a garden, I want to keep a house, and be free to take vacation, free to move, free to spend a day snuggled up with my future babies and husband just because I want to. I don’t want someone else to own my time. I want to make others happy by creating for them, I want to promote causes close to my heart thru my designs. I don’t want a job, I want to be and live, create and learn. Always be a student and pass on what I know to others. Along the way I want to pay my bills and make enough extra to go thrifting on the weekends, and to visit Europe someday.
Thats my dream anyways. And you know what? Life is too short to spend it wishing and feeling unfulfilled. What if I’m not rich? Oh. well. What if I can’t buy a big house? oh. well. What if people don’t take me seriously? oh. well.
Seriously. Oh. well.
what if I tried to sell stuff like the poster I made above? would you buy it?